I think God became real to me when I had Laura. When she was born
I was just amazed, really, and so full of something, like I could
burst sometimes. You know, where did she come from, this little,
perfect thing? I used to look at her, in the night, when I was
feeding her; I felt close to something bigger. I didn't know then
it was God.
That faded away a bit, but I did want her christened. The vicar
was nice really and we had the service. It all went well. Then,
at the end he said prayers for her, not out of a book but like
it really mattered to him, you know, and that's when I started
to pray as well. I just said little prayers, when I wanted to.
It really helped.
I started going to the toddlers club with Laura, and that's where
I met Rachel, and she's been great. She's a real friend; she's
helped me get into being a Christian. It was last year, when Laura
was three, they were asking if anyone wanted to get confirmed,
and I just thought, "Yes". I don't know what it was.
God might have been nudging me. But I just thought "I want
to belong". The only thing I can describe it like is when
Stephen and I had been going out for ages and it suddenly came
to me, "I want to get married". That's what it was like.
I didn't understand everything that we were told in the confirmation
group, but Rachel helped me with it. At the actual confirmation
I was very nervous and everything, but it was very special. It's
hard to say why, but I just felt peaceful - settled.
It has changed my life, only in little ways, but Stephen says
I'm different. Every week I look forward to communion and everyone.
It really keeps me going.
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